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Another Day Another Doctor

Good news from the doctor. Are there going to be more tests? Yes. Is there still a long ways to go? Yes. Am I less anxious about the future? Yes.

Okay, it wasn’t a bad day.

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April 1st An April Fool. At Least I feel like one.

It’s April 1st.

Play a joke on someone. I am not at school today, but if I were 10 seventh grade boys would try to play an April Fool’s Day joke on me. That’s okay because that’s what seventh grade boys are suppose to do. They can’t help it it’s in their DNA.

Me…it seems it is my body that keeps wanting to play a joke on me. I am not getting better and it’s a mystery to the doctors. So I go back in to the hospital for more test, and medicine. Does it help? I don’t know. So when these test I did today don’t work I sure I will go back in for some more. It’s been a year since I’ve had the embolism, and it has been a lot of set backs.

Where I get my weekly blood draws I sit in the same waiting room as the cancer patients at the hospital, and there are a lot of them. I don’t have cancer. And the people who I see have are struggling and do the best they can to cope with their disease.

So I am going to play out this cosmic, this April Fools Day joke, and remember it could be worse for me because I have it happen to those around me. There are worst things that could happen than a joke, and I have to remember that when I want to complain.

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The Return of the Dragon

The Dragon has returned. What is my dragon? It’s the beast that won’t go away. It’s my medical condition that keeps coming back. For me, my dragon-dragons, are blood clots trying to move to my legs to my lungs.

Yesterday, I had another ultrasound and they found more clots in my legs. The dragon is back and it’s trying to kill me. What do I need to do? Fight it of course. I will go back on blood thinners again, and I will go to the lab and have my blood drawn weekly to make sure it’s thin enough.

I was hoping the fight was over. I was hoping the dragon was dead, but he’s not. Everyday, I will make sure I take my Warfin. I will give myself a shot, and I will hope for the best.

My body is really good at making blood clots but hopefully I am better at fighting them off.

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Turn Off Your Devices Podcast

Turn off your devices on The Lonely Writer Podcast:

http://chucktalks.podhoster.com/

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It mouthing the words that keep us quiet

I am tired of just mouthing the words, and I’m really tired of doing it in my life. It’s too easy to sit in the back and pretend we are singing.

Go to a kids choir concert and large large percentage of them are just mouthing the words because they aren’t singing.

For me:

I am tired of sitting I the back and not signing because I have been mouthing the words for all my life.

It’s time to sing:

I need to find my tune and let it out. And I think my tune writing. Because what I have found over the years it’s mouthing the words that keeps us quiet, and I don’t want to be that way any longer.

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